Friday, December 24, 2010
2:42 PM
it's Christmas tmr.
19 years of spending it with my family.
only 1 year where i spent it with someone "special".
this year's no difference.
i had hoped it would be.
but.
it's just another Christmas, just another year.
will it ever be different again i wonder.
i know.
"there's someone out there for me."
that's what everyone says.
that's what i want to believe.
but.
maybe i'm just a big coward inside.
after 4 times of failing.
i'm afraid of falling again.
too broken to be considered whole.
that's what i am.
well that's that.
my few minutes of depression.
haha.
no more :)
[ it's my mistake ]