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Sunday, January 03, 2010
2:34 AM 1 january 2010. 12.45am. at that instant that it happened. my heart stopped. literally. i couldn't breathe. the whole 5 seconds that you were doing it. couldn't look away. couldn't watch. didn't see it coming. never expected it. i laughed. painfully. already trying my best not to cry. looked everywhere but at you. you didn't notice. i fell silent after that. didn't know what to say. didn't know what to do. didn't know how to react. just wanted to run. just wanted to cry. just wanted to shout. found out only much later that you were only biting. but the knowledge didn't help to ease the pain any lesser. because to me. it will always look like you were kissing her. fukc this. why do i still care about you so much. why do i still like you so much. why do i still think about you so much. why do i have a new year's resolution all about YOU ?! do you know that i exist ? do you know that you are still the last thing on my mind when i sleep ? do you know that you are still the first thing on my mind when i wake up ? do you know that you mean the world to me ? but of course. alas. i know that. to you, i'll always just be a friend. nothing more. so why the heck am i still trying ? |
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