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Thursday, July 30, 2009
12:56 AM I CAN NEVER DO ANYTHING !! YOU'RE CRYING AND YET I'M NOT THERE FOR YOU !! YOU ASKED ME TO GET YOU OUT OF YOUR HOUSE BUT I CAN'T !! WHAT ELSE CAN I DO BUT SIT HERE AT HOME AND WORRY ?! I CARE SO MUCH ABOUT YOU AND YET I CAN'T DO ANYTHING ?! you don't know how useless i felt when you called and i could hear you crying .. i couldn't think of anything to say and just kept quiet .. you don't know how much i wanted to just appear beside you so that you'd know that you're not alone .. so that you'd know i'm here for you .. you don't know how frustrated i am with myself for not being able to step out of my house after hours and not having transportation .. if i did , i would rescue you from your "prison" everytime you asked me to .. if i had the means i would bring you out of this wretched place and stay in some god forsaken place and never come back .. do you know how i feel everytime tom mentions your name or you mention his ? its as if my heart will explode .. tom does things that you'll notice .. whereas i do subtle little things with the tiniest hope that maybe one day , you'll finally understand why i'm doing it .. everytime i see you with him , it's as if the whole world collapses .. everytime he tells me something about you that i don't know , i can't breathe .. everytime someone mentions the both of you , you don't know , but my face turns dark and i turn away .. you found out accidently about how i really felt about you .. but i lied .. i said no .. i said no way .. while in my heart i was screaming yes .. because the answer you gave me was too hurtful for me to comprehend .. i knew all along .. you would never like a person like me .. and yet .. even after seeing that msg .. i'm doing so much more for you .. i find myself accompanying you more .. i find myself meeting you more .. i find myself thinking about you more .. i know there's no point in doing these things .. i know there's no point at all .. because i already know your answer .. and still .. |
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