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Wednesday, May 27, 2009
12:16 AM do you know how much my heart hurts when i saw your blog post ? it's as if you're getting ready for a breakdown and i can't do anything about it .. i want to listen to your problems .. those that you tell felicia , peiqi , wanyee .. and not me .. are you thinking that because i'm not truthful towards you , you can't be truthful towards me ? you don't know how much i want to tell you the truth .. i have feelings for you that i can't say out .. my heart skips a beat whenever i see you walking towards TPS .. my body burns whenever you're near me .. i find myself stealing glaces at you .. i don't want to destroy a friendship like i did before .. yes peiqi says that you may not mind .. you may even brush it off and we can continue being friends like nothing happened .. but i'm not going to risk all that just so that you can know the truth .. want to know the real reasons why i'm always so angry or emotional whenever you're near me ? because i'm jealous that others have the time to accompany you and i don't .. because i care so much about you and yet it's like my advice always falls on deaf ears .. and most of all because i fell for you when i'm not supposed to .. i love Him and i like you too that's why i'm confused .. that's why i rather avoid you than see you .. that's why i don't like making eye contact with you .. do you know that i'm seriously considering leaving TPS ? because i don't want to see you .. because i don't want to keep falling in love with you .. and most of all i don't want to keep seeing you having fun with others while i work .. because that person next to you is not me .. i want to be the one who you pour out all your problems to .. i want to be the one who sends you home everyday .. i want to be the one that you sing all your love songs to .. i want to be the one who will always be there for you .. i want to be yours .. so many oppurtunities came and went .. to tell you how i felt but i didn't take them .. because i know i can't .. because i'm not supposed to be feeling this way .. and because you deserve better .. don't ask me what i like about you because i have never been able to answer this kind question no matter who asks .. i just do and will always until God helps me to forget about you .. from now till then , BLANK , my feelings toward you is 100% alive and will not fade no matter what .. |
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