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Thursday, May 28, 2009
11:40 PM samantha feels loved : peiqi came down to accompany her eat lunch , carene also came down to accompany her eat lunch , lingling came down to check whether she ate dinner or not .. samantha feels proud of herself : she learnt how to do closing today .. samantha feels happy : peiqi helped her come up with a new signature .. samantha feels bored : work is becoming monotonous to her but no work = no money .. samantha feels lost : she can't seem to feel Him anymore .. samantha feels frustrated : she wears her heart on her sleeve and lets everyone know what she's feeling .. samantha feels sad : someone she knows is feeling down but she can't do anything about it .. samantha feels torn : there's something that she's dying to say but can't .. alot of emotions for a heart the size of her fist haha .. Wednesday, May 27, 2009
10:23 PM WONG WAI MUN SAMANTHA HAS OFFICIALLY GRADUATED FROM SINGAPORE POLYTECHNIC WITH A DIPLOMA IN CHEMICAL PROCESS TECHNOLOGY (FOOD TECHNOLOGY) AS OF 27 MAY 2009
1:02 AM oh God .. help me ..
12:16 AM do you know how much my heart hurts when i saw your blog post ? it's as if you're getting ready for a breakdown and i can't do anything about it .. i want to listen to your problems .. those that you tell felicia , peiqi , wanyee .. and not me .. are you thinking that because i'm not truthful towards you , you can't be truthful towards me ? you don't know how much i want to tell you the truth .. i have feelings for you that i can't say out .. my heart skips a beat whenever i see you walking towards TPS .. my body burns whenever you're near me .. i find myself stealing glaces at you .. i don't want to destroy a friendship like i did before .. yes peiqi says that you may not mind .. you may even brush it off and we can continue being friends like nothing happened .. but i'm not going to risk all that just so that you can know the truth .. want to know the real reasons why i'm always so angry or emotional whenever you're near me ? because i'm jealous that others have the time to accompany you and i don't .. because i care so much about you and yet it's like my advice always falls on deaf ears .. and most of all because i fell for you when i'm not supposed to .. i love Him and i like you too that's why i'm confused .. that's why i rather avoid you than see you .. that's why i don't like making eye contact with you .. do you know that i'm seriously considering leaving TPS ? because i don't want to see you .. because i don't want to keep falling in love with you .. and most of all i don't want to keep seeing you having fun with others while i work .. because that person next to you is not me .. i want to be the one who you pour out all your problems to .. i want to be the one who sends you home everyday .. i want to be the one that you sing all your love songs to .. i want to be the one who will always be there for you .. i want to be yours .. so many oppurtunities came and went .. to tell you how i felt but i didn't take them .. because i know i can't .. because i'm not supposed to be feeling this way .. and because you deserve better .. don't ask me what i like about you because i have never been able to answer this kind question no matter who asks .. i just do and will always until God helps me to forget about you .. from now till then , BLANK , my feelings toward you is 100% alive and will not fade no matter what .. Tuesday, May 26, 2009
12:13 AM what have i done .. make them worried then make them go home late .. what have i done .. there really was nothing going on .. REALLY .. what can i say to make you all convinced ? why can't you all accept my answer and go home ? i'm really sorry for making you all worried but i just wanted to be by myself for awhile THAT'S ALL .. [ note to self : only emo when no one notices that i'm gone ] Thursday, May 21, 2009
12:23 AM 1,2,3,4 by Plain White T's 1-2-1-2-3-4 Give me more loving than I’ve ever had Make it all better when I’m feeling sad Tell me I’m special even though I know I’m not Make me feel good when I hurt so bad Barely getting mad I’m so glad I found you I love being around you You make it easy Its as easy as 1-2-1-2-3-4 There’s only one thing To Do Three words For you (I love you) I love you There’s only one way to say Those three words and That’s what I’ll do (I love you) I love you Give me more loving from the very start Piece me back together when I fall apart Tell me things you never even tell your closest friends Make me feel good when I hurt so bad You’re the best that I’ve had And I’m so glad I found you I love being around you You make it easy It’s easy as 1-2-1-2-3-4 There’s only one thing To Do Three words For you (I love you) I love you There’s only one way to say Those three words and That’s what I’ll do (I love you) I love you (I love you) I love you You make it easy It’s easy as 1-2-1-2-3-4 There’s only one thing To Do Three words For you (I love you) I love you There’s only one way to say Those three words and That’s what I’ll do (I love you) I love you (I love you) I love you 1-2-3-4 I love you (I love you) I love you Sunday, May 17, 2009
1:40 AM HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY LILING !! Sunday, May 10, 2009
12:38 AM 4th May 2009 got our graduation robe ~ long long thingy .. went bugis get chingyee present ~ a bottle of perfume after smelling don't know how many bottles .. nose spoil already -_- .. we had a bbq at chingyee's place and her dog totally made some of them scream XD .. nice doggy but abit too big lah haha .. bought cake for chingyee , terrance and ruisheng .. had a treasure hunt and all of us were stuck at the last clue -_- .. wandering around lost after running around her condo like mad people XD .. went home after that .. really tired .. 5th May 2009 had diarrhoea and vomitted -_- must be bbq .. lucky didn't give away night shift .. 8th May 2009 another bbq at peiqi house ~ .. reached there and played indian poker ~ .. ruijun and i got drunk -_- .. and ruijun YOU were more drunk than me lor !! keep saying you're not -_- .. end up ruijun and carene overnight at peiqi place also .. totally didn't sleep till they left the next morning .. oh yea had diarrhoea again -_- 9th May 2009 went back home to bathe then straight to work .. yini was totally nua-ing there still wanna take meixuan night shift tsk tsk .. rushed to sentosa to have ANOTHER bbq but this time no diarrhoea so far -_- .. went back to tps to get my stuff and end up stay till 11 plus .. tomorrow got church and drumming some more .. i buay tahan liao .. next week schedule see liao i wanna cry -_- .. four days straight split shift .. no choice bah yini not here and the others not free .. more money for me at the end of the month though :) .. jiayou le !! Friday, May 08, 2009
1:15 AM HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHINGYEE !! Monday, May 04, 2009
12:38 AM HAPPY BIRTHDAY MEIQI AND GRACE !! Friday, May 01, 2009
12:44 AM do you care about how i feel ?! do you KNOW what i'm feeling ?! do you realise that i have so little time with my colleagues already and yet you're still taking what time i have left AWAY ?! do you know that the only time i can talk to them is after work AT NIGHT ?! you think that my work is the same as yours ?! sit in the air con office the whole day and be able to find time to talk to each other ?! i'm already NOT taking any money from you and yet you still complain how i spend it ?! did you PAUSE to think about WHY i would rather stay out late then come home ?! the only times i stay out late is on fridays or public holidays WHEN I HAVE NOTHING ON THE NEXT DAY !! do you realise how much time you have taken away from me just so that you can SEE me at home ?! you think i ENJOY being at home ?! all i do is online and watch tv !! i would rather get locked out again and again just so i can spend time with my friends !! i'm seriously pissed at you right now and i know you can feel it !! or do you want me to be more OBVIOUS ?! all i want is to be able to stay out late and come home at any time i want !! IS THAT SO HARD ?!!!! i'm 20 years of age for crying out loud !! and i have freaking CURFEW of 11 pm ?! what can i do to make you believe NOTHING is going to happen to me ?! singapore is so BLOODY safe !! i know how to take care of myself !! your way of caring for me outdated itself a few years ago !! i just want to spend time with my friends !! URGH !! |
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