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Monday, December 31, 2007
12:16 PM
five steps .. i will do it .. because i know i have let Him down .. i want to be close to Him again .. so yes i will do it !! people must jiayou for me !!
1:49 AM it will be a new year for all of us tomorrow .. wow time really flies when you're not noticing .. exams are just around the corner and after that all of us will be going our seperate ways for attachment [ even less chance to meet and talk ] .. oh well when we return for our final year :D .. [ i'm going into the new year feeling happier than before .. no longer will i be depressed or anything but happy because i have God in my heart and i trust Him to help me bring peace to my heart :) ] [ i'm not going to think about what happened between us anymore because i know there's no point in doing that .. i hope you have found the happiness that i couldn't give you and i still want to remain as friends .. ]
1:46 AM  forgot to ask for sentosa photos so i'm putting it here :p [ yea we were all burnt except for the red shirt one who LEFT EARLY ] Sunday, December 30, 2007
5:11 PM i'm officially in cell group E256 of City Harvest Church [ screams in joy ] lol gosh thanks peien for bringing me to today's 9.30am service .. opened my heart to God :) .. oh and thanks to michelle for bringing me there in the first place [ hugs ] .. [ decision -> dedication -> discipline ] this will be my motto from now on jiayou for me !! XD
4:53 PM ah i forgot .. had DCP 2A / 24 class outing that day friday .. woohoo mr lim so kind ah !! pay for the whole class then don't accept our money some more treat us eat ferro roche whee ~ .. disappointed with the restaurant so little to eat roar !! took class photo [ minus helen and liling ] then we went our seperate ways haha .. so left me, geraldine, janice, limin, yuting and angyi and guess where we went ? ang mo kio hub -_-" gosh that's the most boringest [ if there's such a word ] shopping centre lah .. walk around awhile only then nothing to do le .. lucky still got arcade XD .. went home put bag then went to bukit gombak meet michelle [ whee !! appreciation night !! ] so cute lah the turtle i bought for one of the members [ i wanna keep for myself wahaha ] so yea the both of us got lost looking for the condo woohoo ~ .. and yet we were still one of the earlier ones dots .. waited till around 8pm [ by then all of us complaining HUNGRY already haha ] and we played this one game which i don't know what was the point of it ? and then we ate pizza and fried rice and fried noodles and lots and lots of CHICKEN lol .. took turns taking photo with peien to let others choose who the best dressed was [ woohoo ~ ] gift exchange time sharon called very good !! just nice climax time you call roar .. went home around 12 sia cause got somebody kind enough to fetch me home wahaha XD .. [ i enjoyed myself that day !! whee !! ]  DCP 2A /24 *hugs*
1:03 AM I WILL GET BETTER .. I WILL FORGET .. I WILL NOT MAKE MY FRIENDS WORRY ABOUT ME AGAIN .. I WILL GET OVER IT .. I WILL GET OVER IT .. I WILL GET OVER IT !! [ thanks guys for listening, i will zhen zuo de ok? :) ] Wednesday, December 26, 2007
6:22 PM oh man so little sunlight and yet eight of us got burnt like anything .. oh sorry jingjing didn't even turn red HAHA .. yuting was the REDDEST one of all .. at first just sat at the beach and play concentration omg -_-" how bored can we get .. bought a ball then liling left [ragh zhong se qing you] so the rest of us played monkey then captain's ball .. poor limin got stuck in the middle being monkey for so long .. anyway i think we all had fun bah [except liling who left early:p] and thanks : chingyee for your irritating bouncy turtle and your dinosaur clip jingjing for the packet of chocolates, the mini vietnam hat, another pack of chocolates and the exchange present geraldine for the keychain [ eh eh friday go show them our redness / blackness haha !! ] [ i guess my wish didn't come true after all if not .. ] Tuesday, December 25, 2007
12:05 AM you say you didn't have anyone the last few years during this time of the year .. have you forgotten that we were still together last year ? have you forgotten that you still had me last year ? i admit i don't remember what i gave you or what we did but at least i remember that we were still in love .. i still love you as much as i did last year .. i don't know what's going on with your life right now but i get this feeling you're not happy .. you don't know how much i wish that i could be there for you .. i would spend every christmas with you if i was given the chance .. just once i wish that you would read what i'm typing .. then and maybe then would you understand how i feel .. how much i still love you .. how much i want us to be together again .. [ merry christmas ] Monday, December 24, 2007
2:09 PM that feeling's back .. oh God help me .. let me be at peace again .. no matter how much i tell myself to look away i just can't seem to forget .. those wonderful memories we had together were once in a lifetime .. oh God help me .. help me forget .. better yet .. just rip open my chest and take out my heart because it is the thing that's causing me grief .. i'm torturing myself by thinking these thoughts .. [ God if you can't help me forget then at least let the person know that i will be here waiting .. no matter how long it takes .. i will wait .. ] Sunday, December 23, 2007
7:18 PM went for a special christmas service at the City Harvest Church yesterday at Expo .. and i have found the Prince of peace .. i feel as if God has taken away all my troubles and heartbreaks .. i felt so peaceful after the service it's really as if i'm a new person .. it's as though nothing can bring me down :) .. i have a feeling i'll be going back to that church two weeks later because i want to hear more .. [ i'm finally happy !! i really am !! i've never felt this way before !! ] Thursday, December 20, 2007
11:05 PM Ending song of School Days TV The pain stabs into my heart, [ i hate thinking ]
2:02 AM Song in School Days TV (japanese anime) I am wishing for these repeating words to reach you. The world started shaking sometime ago. Our passing feelings cross. Wish up on a starry sky, pray to the earth. I promise that it’s an undying love. I want you, I want you to just hold me. Hold my selfish hands tightly, Seek out pain. Only you, only you are alive after being swallowed. There’s one person at the bottom of the sea, Still drowning. I want to be wrapped up by the shaking light one more time. The sky cries, the laughing soil dances with a flower, The goodbye that was left behind. I am the only one, I am the only one who can protect you. The feelings I can’t express in words, I teared up. Because it’s you, because it’s you, I will keep on believing. Wednesday, December 19, 2007
11:38 PM nowadays stay at home watch japanese anime .. i know i have much to catch up on in studies .. i know i got alot of projects and what-have-you to finish .. but i just don't have the mood to them .. everytime i watch an anime there's something in it that reminds me of you .. of all those moments that we spent together .. fuck it why the hell am i still thinking about these things .. what's the point .. you're happy with him and yet all i can think about is you .. i still lie in bed thinking every night .. yea what a waste of my brain cells .. but i can't stop it .. there's still a part of me that wants to go back to the time when we were still together .. ARGH FUCK I HATE MY HEART !! Tuesday, December 18, 2007
3:43 PM Love love ? ( japanese anime ) ending song Looking through the viewfinder, I noticed, That I was always focusing on you. The time we spent together slowly built up, It’s okay if we don’t hide our inconcealable thoughts. Long ago, the moon and stars made a promise, That we would always be together. Stronger than everyone else, closer than anyone else, Yes, I’m here for the sake of loving you. Engraving you inside my eyes and heart, Even if we’re blown in the wind, or drenched in the rain. Yes, as long as we’re together, Because just like yesterday, You’ll become even more precious tomorrow. Saturday, December 15, 2007
12:21 AM the past few weeks .. on every single friday .. especially from 1-3pm .. i sleep to escape from reality .. the harsh and cruel reality that has ripped you from me .. always, when you're sitting beside me .. i wonder to myself : does he love you like i do ? does he care about you like i do ? .. i saw you shivering last week during lessons and you were also having flu .. yet you told me you weren't cold .. do you know how much it hurts me to see you like this ? to see you suffering and yet i can't do anything because i'm no longer a part of your life .. every night, i'm still wishing, hoping, praying that one day, maybe one day, you will again say those words that you once said to me .. those words that made feel like the happiest person alive .. but i guess i'm just wasting my time .. for all i know, you might be whispering those words to somebody else right now .. because you love him like you never loved me .. even though i was a mere stepping stone to you, you meant the world to me .. i don't even know whether you will read this .. i don't even know why i'm typing this out .. it's most definitely not to let everyone know .. i guess i just want you to know how i feel right now .. i guess i just want you to know that i still love you .. i guess i just want you to know that i'll always be here waiting .. waiting for that one day when you'll come back .. [ how i wish nothing has changed ] Friday, December 14, 2007
11:39 PM  oh man !! yifang, vicky and laoda just came my house to decorate my christmas tree !! scared my hamsters in the process too .. ah well we had fun laughing HAHA .. the tree's really pretty !! think they coming my house tomorrow again .. oh no .. too much of laoda in a week .. OVERDOSE .. ah well better than staying at home alone :p [ holidays !! somebody go out with me !! ] Wednesday, December 12, 2007
12:25 PM 28 Dec: whee ~!! sakura restaurant ~!! Tuesday, December 11, 2007
6:17 PM 15 Dec: gays coming my house to decorate tree = wrecking my christmas tree because laoda will probably make it really really UGLY .. 26 Dec: i have an awful feeling that 2A/24 girls will come and destroy my house and there's really no point in trying to dissuade them -_-" .. like what chingyee said: "we go your house play game, watch tv and just wait to eat." good for you .. my hand might just slip something POISONOUS inside .. :p [ i hope it doesn't rain PLEASE DON'T LET IT RAIN !! ] [ i really want to go sentosa :( ] 28 Dec: PTN .. yay .. Botak jones = coffeeshop .. eat halfway rain and no shelter i really got nothing to say .. [ i hope it doesn't rain PLEASE DON'T LET IT RAIN !! ] Sunday, December 09, 2007
3:57 PM [ the nineth .. a date that made me happy whenever it came .. now it just hurts .. it would have been 22 months today if nothing had changed .. how i wish nothing had changed .. how i wish i could go back in time and stop myself from opening my mouth .. maybe then will i still be the same person as before all of this happened .. the one who put friends first and not other things .. ] [ if you listen carefully, you might still be able to hear my heart shattering into a million pieces ] Thursday, December 06, 2007
7:22 PM Michael learns to rock - That's why (you go away) Baby won't you tell me why there is sadness in your eyes I don't wanna say goodbye to you Love is one big illusion I should try to forget But there is something left in my head You're the one who set it up now you're the one to make it stop I'm the one who's feeling lost right now Now you want me to forget every little thing you said But there is something left in my head I won't forget the way you're kissing The feeling's so strong were lasting for so long But I'm not the man your heart is missing That's why you go away I know You were never satisfied no matter how I tried Now you wanna say goodbye to me Love is one big illusion I should try to forget There is something left in my head I won't forget the way you're kissing The feeling's so strong were lasting for so long But I'm not the man your heart is missing That's why you go away I know Sitting here all alone in the middle of nowhere Don't know which way to go There ain't so much to say now between us There ain't so much for you There ain't so much for me anymore I won't forget the way you're kissing The feeling's so strong were lasting for so long But I'm not the man your heart is missing That's why you go away I know That's why you go away I know [ i hate thursdays ]
12:59 AM Jon Mclauglin - So close You’re in my arms And all the world is calm The music playing on for only two So close together And when I’m with you So close to feeling alive A life goes by Romantic dreams will stop So I bid mine goodbye and never knew So close was waiting, waiting here with you And now forever I know All that I wanted to hold you So close So close to reaching that famous happy end Almost believing this was not pretend And now you’re beside me and look how far we’ve come So far we are so close How could I face the faceless days If I should lose you now? We’re so close To reaching that famous happy end And almost believing this was not pretend Let’s go on dreaming for we know we are So close So close And still so far Wednesday, December 05, 2007
5:29 PM  it's raining again .. Tuesday, December 04, 2007
7:14 PM Link - It takes two They say it's a man's world Well, that cannot be denied But what good's a man's world Without a woman by your side And so i will wait Until that moment you decide That i'm your man And you're my girl That i'm the sea And you're the pearl It takes two, baby, It takes two Doo doo - wop! A king ain't a king Without the pow'r behind the throne A prince is a pauper. Babe, Without a chick to call his own So please, darling, choose me I don't wanna rule alone Tell me, I'm your king And you're my queen That no one else Can come between It takes two, baby, It takes two Don't you know Lancelot had guinevere Mrs. Claus has old st. Nick Romeo had juliet And liz, well, she has her dick They say it takes two to tango Well, that tango's child's play So take me to the dance floor And we'll twist the night away Just like frankie avalon Had his favorite mouseketeer I dream of a lover, babe, To say the things i long to hear So come closer baby, Oh and whisper in my ear Yeah! That you're my girl And i'm your boy That you're my pride And i'm your joy That i'm the sand And you're the tide I'll be the groom If you'll be my bride It takes two, baby, It takes two I'm your girl (you're my girl) You're my boy (i'm your boy) You're my pride I'm your joy I'm the sand You're the tide Be the groom I'll be your bride (be my bride) It takes two... It takes two... It takes two, baby It takes two ...
6:46 PM  [ dieded ]Monday, December 03, 2007
9:17 PM Amy Adams - That's how you know Giselle: How does she know you love her? How does she know she's yours? Man: How does she know that you love her? Giselle:How do you show her you love her? Both: How does she know that you really, really, truely love her? How does she know that you love her? How do you show her you love her? How does she know that you really, really, truely love her? Giselle:It's not enough to take the one you love for granted You must remind her, or she'll be inclined to say... "How do I know he loves me?" (How does she know that you love her? How do you show her you love her?) "How do I know he's mine?" (How does she know that you really, really, truely love her?) Well does he leave a little note to tell you you are on his mind? Send you yellow flowers when the sky is grey? Heyy! He'll find a new way to show you, a little bit everyday That's how you know, that's how you know! He's your love... Man: You've got to show her you need her Don't treat her like a mind reader Each day do something to need her To believe you love her Giselle:Everybody wants to live happily ever after Everybody wants to know their true love is true... How do you know he loves you? (How does she know that you love her? How do you show her you need her?) How do you know he's yours? (How does she know that you really, really, truely-) Well does he take you out dancin' just so he can hold you close? Dedicate a song with words in Just for you? Ohhh! All:He'll find his own way to tell you With the little things he'll do That's how you know That's how you know! Giselle:He's your love He's your love... That's how you know (la la la la la la la la) He loves you (la la la la la la la la) That's how you know (la la la la la la la la) It's true (la la la la la) Because he'll wear your favorite color Just so he can match your eyes Rent a private picnic By the fires glow-oohh! All:His heart will be yours forever Something everyday will show That's how you know (That's how you know) That's how you know (That's how you know) That's how you know (That's how you know) That's how you know (That's how you know) That's how you know (That's how you know) That's how you know (That's how you know) That's how you know! Giselle:He's your love... Man: That's how she knows that you love her That's how you show her you love her Giselle:That's how you know... That's how you know... He's your love... [ whee~! ]
9:14 PM Amy Adams - True love's kiss Giselle: When you meet the someone who was meant for you Before two can become one there is something we must do Animal: Do you pull each others tails? Animal: Do you feed each other seeds? Giselle: No, there is something sweeter everybody needs I've been dreaming of a true love's kiss And a prince I'm hoping comes with this That's what brings everaftering so happy And that's the reason we need lips so much For lips are the only things that touch So to spend a life of endless bliss Just find who you love through true love's kiss Giselle: aaaaa aaaaa aaaaaaaaaaaa Animals: aaaaa aaaaa aaaaaaaaaaaa Animals: Shes been dreaming of a true love's kiss And a prince she's hoping comes with this That's what brings everaftering so happy And that's the reason we need lips so much For lips are the only things that touch Giselle: So to spend a life of endless bliss Just find who you love through true love's kiss Edward: You're the fairest maid I've ever met You were made... Giselle: ...to finish your duet Giselle and Edward: And in years to come we'll reminisce Edward: How we came to love Giselle: And grow and grow love Everyone: Since first we knew love through true love's kiss [ i'm fast :p ]
9:07 PM Carrie Underwood - Ever ever after Storybook endings, fairy tales coming true Deep down inside we want to believe they still do And a secret is taught, it's our favourite part of the story Let's just admit we all want to make it too Ever ever after If we just don't get it our own way Ever ever after It may only be a wish away Starting your fashion, wear your heart on your sleeve Sometimes you reach what's real just by making believe Unafraid, unashamed There is joy to be claimed in this world You even might wind up being glad to be you Ever ever after Though the world will tell you it's not smart Ever ever after The world can be yours if you let your heart Believe in ever after No wonder your heart feels it's flying Your head feels it's spinning Each happy ending's a brand new beginning Let yourself be enchanted, you just might break through To ever ever after Forever could even start today Ever ever after Maybe it's just one wish away Your ever ever after (I've been dreaming of a true love's kiss) Oh, for ever ever after [ i'll be back when i find the lyrics to the opening song :p ]
6:37 PM  came across this picture in the net .. it's so sad but true at the same time .. once we've graduated from the school we've studied in for a few years we MOVE ON .. best friends become total strangers over a short period of time because they seldom meet .. my primary school friends can walk past me and i won't even recognise them .. is this really what school is about? we make friends we work with them for awhile then we forget about them .. is this what life is about? making use of the people we meet to move on to greater things .. a few years down the road if we meet again, will my friends still remember me? will we remember those times that we shared? all the times spent laughing at who knows what :) .. i guess there's no point in going back .. the world will continue turning .. time will continue to tick away .. what we can do now is to treasure the present .. no point in looking back and trying to get the past back because it will never return .. oh yea .. i don't think there was ever such a thing as "friends forever" .. [ buddy i WILL wake up .. i know there's no point and i'm just deluding myself :) me will jiayou de !! ]Sunday, December 02, 2007
5:50 PM  i'm still feeling lost .. i don't know what i should do anymore .. i would give up everything just to go back in time .. to the time when i was truly happy .. those memories that made me smile, makes me feel depressed whenever i think of them now .. maybe i'm still hoping .. hoping and praying that one day, a miracle can happen .. but i know deep down that miracles don't happen .. especially to people like me .. i hate it whenever the feeling comes back .. [ i may look happy but it doesn't mean that i am ] Saturday, December 01, 2007
11:02 PM Take back the holly and mistletoe Silver bells on a string If I wrote a letter to Santa Claus I would ask for just one thing I don't need sleigh rides in the snow I don't want Christmas that's blue Take back the tinsel, stockings and bows Cuz all I want for Christmas is you I don't need expensive things They don't matter to me All that I want can't be found Underneath the Christmas tree You are the angel that tops my tree You are my dream come true Santa can't bring me what I need Cuz all I want for Christmas is you [ haiz ] |
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