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Friday, July 15, 2005
~dis shouldnt hav happened~
4:18 PM How could this happen to me?i've made my mistakes, got nowhere to run, the night goes on as i'm fading away, i'm sick of this life, i just wanna scream, how could this happen to me?i try to hold on to a time when nothing mattered and i cant explain what happened and i cant erase the things that i've done..i'm so lonely, i have nobody..life's a bore, so full of the superficial, everything means nothing..was it something i did?was it something you said?all this time you were pretending, all the things you hide from me..all of our memories, so close to me, just fade away..draggin' my two feet, time is layin' heavy on my heart..i'm awake but my world is half asleep, voices tell me i should carry on..sometimes i do some stupid things, sometimes i say what i should just keep inside, sometimes i'm sad about everything, sometimes i feel like lying down and dying..The situation got out of hand, hearts will break cause i made a stupid mistake..skies are dark, it's time for rain..i walk a lonely road, my shadow's the only one that walks beside me..any moment, everything can change, the world's feeling hollow..felt like no one could hear me, wanted to belong here..i'm tired of people lying..i lie awake at night..i'm weak cuz i'm afraid to know the answers..In the years to come, will you think about these moments that we shared, how we lived each day with no regrets?nothing lasts forever though we want it to, each and every end is always written in the stars..feel like breaking down, feel out of place, just don't belong and no one understands, wanna runaway and lock myself in my room, wanna be somebody else, sick of feeling so left out, desparate to find something more before my life is over, stuck inside a world i hate, sick of everyone around with their big fake smiles and their stupid lies, hurt, lost, left out in the dark, on the edge of breaking down..i keep thinking times will never change, keep on thinking things will always be the same, these memories are playing like a film without sound, will the past be a shadow that will follow us round, will these memories fade?..in a world torn by change..what's the problem i don't know, can't stop thinking 'bout it, i didn't mean to do it..i ain't the sharpest tool in the shed, i need to get myself away from this place..don't wanna figure this out, things will never be the same..i gave you all of my trust..i havent really ever found a place that i call home, nothing i have is truly mine, how can i say i'm alive..hopelessly reaching, gotta escape now..i can't pretend that i'm alright, nothing lasts forever, i try not to think about the pain i feel inside, all the days you spent with me, now seem so far away and it feels like you don't care anymore, nothing's gonna change the things that you said and nothing's gonna make this right again, i can't believe it's hard just to talk to you..i can't focus..i'm so sorry that i'm falling, sometimes it's hard to keep on running..it seems like everyday i make mistakes, I just can't get it right, it's all a big lie..how could i forget, loneliness has been a friend of mine..and i never thought i'd feel this way..i don't understand why, i know i made a mistake, i'm twisted cuz one side of me is tellin' me that i need to move on, on the other side i wanna break down and cry..what's the secret that you've been hiding, i should've seen it coming, i should've read the signs, and i who thought you were my friend, how was i to know, you never told me, you never gave me too many chances, if i could i would turn back the time..it's like a bad movie..there's so many things i wanna say, it breaks my heart to see you cryin'..words are only words, i don't wanna be lonely no more, i don't wanna be angry no more..i watched the walls around me crumble, don't want to be the last to know..all that surround me are secrets and lies, over and over i fall..here comes the rain again, falling from the stars..i don't wanna do this somebody help me..[hopeless useless brainless] |
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